You can shrivel and die or understand why

There's only two ways to deal with cancer when you´re given the news that you have it. You can shrivel and die or you can try to understand why. I want to try and understand why I have contracted it because of the law of attraction and my strong belief in it.
When it became clear that for certain I had cancer it wasn´t really a great shock to me because I already knew that it was in my body because of the strong negative person I was. On the outside I was a very strong person that would seem to others to be full of life and riding high but that was not always the case. I struggled through life with physiological problems on and off for years and tried to appoint blame on various situations as they occurred. I think if I'm honest,which seems to be one of the things that has happened to me since my diagnosis, I spent life in a 50-50% of ups and downs.
My ups were amazing and life was great, I created everything I desired and was always as high as a kite. At the same time I always believed that it couldn´ t last for ever so of course the law of attraction would answer in true form and I would crash in one dramatic way or another.
Please don´t misunderstand I had a very easy life by most peoples standards I never really had an issue with worrying about money or never went hungry and there was lots of love in my life from others. I think the only person that didn´t care about me was me and that carried through into my thirties.
The good thing is, I don´t feel bad in any way now and that is because of lots of different reasons and situations that have happened but the most important thing is it´s not for any other reason than I´ve started to understand life and I'm feeling good just for feeling good.
People, situations, money, love and relationships are an important part of this physical life but without inner love, peace and contentment with who you are you can not know true happiness
I´ve been responsible for everything in my life so far and I'm responsible for the rest too . Knowing this has been the greatest gift I´ve given myself ever and I believe that this illness I have is giving me the opportunity to grow and expand mentally.
Just one thing I must say is that you don´t need to worry about your past or to pick yourself to pieces in fact that´s the last thing you need to do and I´m certainly not, but it can help to analyse yourself honestly to help move forward, it has for me. Everything in your life can start from right now and it will change in hours! Feeling good today is a good feeling for today but also its the basis for feeling good tomorrow and the day after and so on.
I can only see cancer as a positive part of my life and I feel lucky to have been given this opportunity to start again with a greater understanding of my life and I will not squander it by being negative and sad. I know that it effects family and friends in a different way and that it´s much harder for the people that love you than it is for you but I can´t express how much this has changed my life for the best.
There´s no need for me to fight it because I know that it is only here as my wake up call and to appreciate it for the good it has done for me. I´ve heard over the years, through the media, of people who have had cancer and the great things that they have achieved. Great charities have been started that have created advances in understanding of the dis-ease the progress in recoveries could not have been made without the fundraising backed by people with this illness. I can´t begin to list the amount of positive things that have come from people with cancer and can only think of a few negatives.
I know that people pass on but there is no death in the sense of death we´ve been lead to believe
its just the return to source energy where we can feel only pure joy. Yes, it´s no doubt difficult for the people left behind, that´s a normal selfish feeling to want to hold on to someone if you love them but even under those circumstances the grieving generally join or create groups to help others, so show me the negative.
I think this all goes back to the title that there are only two ways to deal with this and that is positive or negative and it does no one good to duel on something or make themselves sad.
That´s all about that bit I will discuss but it needed to be said. If you can understand that you are in control of your life then you have nothing to fear. If you can know,like you know, like you know you will get through any traumatic situation you will.
It´s the same for any aspect to your life, it is your life. Your wealth is your responsibility if you believe you can earn a 1.000.000.euros you will earn it, If you believe you can win the lotto you can, If you believe the love of your life is just around the corner you´ll bump into them, of that I have no doubt.
I truly believe this because of the situation I´m in now. I know that I created this cancer in my body. If I thought I was a vibrational match for something else I would have chose that but I knew that cancer was a vibrational match to me because of my past bad feelings in my head and the small lump in my neck was the result of those bad feelings and lack of love for life. This is my contrast in a way that only I can truly understand and would not expect someone else to try this or understand completely.
Being a vibrational match for something is part of the law of allowing which is a fundamental part of the law of attraction. So if you´re trying to get something that´s too far away from your current vibration then there will only be disappointment and it would be difficult to create a belief in it.
Without getting the result of cancer the way that I got it I would not be the perfect being I feel I am. An odd way to prove something to yourself but then I´ve always been a bit odd and besides knowing now what I know to be true I don´t fear the outcome. Simply because I know I created it so I can get rid of just the same.
Even my broken leg was part of the plan too, although I didn´t quite realize that it would be this painful, it has shown me so much and given me the opportunity to write and express myself in a whole new way. It´s given me more time to spend with my Mum and Sarah which could never have happened otherwise and friends have bent over backwards to help.
I think what I´m trying to say is that it has taught me how to appreciate and love more which was clearly missing in my life Which is probably why I got the cancer in the first place so that´s another good reason why I know I´m going to be well again now.
We came into this physical experience to know only good and positive things and to ultimately experience Joy and at long last I get it now thank G.o.d.