Before I start I must apologise I took the day of school when they did grammar and punctuation so you ll just have to bare with me
A year ago I felt a small lump in my neck and like most men I ignored it and never paid it any attention. Then in September 2008 I noticed it again but this time it was a little bigger, no big deal I thought and carried on regardless. Also at the same time I started to feel very different about myself and if I'm honest I started hearing voices in my head, nothing to strange I might add but voices all the same. I was never a big reader or Internet user but found myself looking for answers to the meaning of life. The answers came thick and fast and I found myself spending more and more time trawling the net for information and at the same time my lump was growing.
Being the man that I was I ignored it some more until eventually with much persuasion I went to the doctors for a check up. They did the usual tests and I waited for the results which I received a few weeks later. All seemed fine but just to be sure they then sent me to hospital for a biopsy on my neck just before Christmas. At the same time my research was leading me in a fascinating direction, I had found ABRAHAM channeled through Esther hicks. This captivated my interest and thirst for more information and I began to understand the reasons for life, a very bold statement I know but there has been nothing in my hole live that I can say has touched me so deeply.
Then it came to me like a bolt from blue, I knew the answer to all that was happening in my life and went to the hospital with the knowing that I had cancer and it would give me the opportunity to prove that cancer is an illness of the mind and that I could prove to the world that it can be cured through positive thought, however when the doctors told me that the lump in my neck was benign i was shocked.
I know that for most people that would be the answer that they longed for but I was so sure that it was my destiny to have cancer to help others. I know I can hear you all screaming what a nutter but I was sure, anyway about 10 days later I received the call from the hospital calling me back and sure enough they had made a mistake and I had an aggressive malignancy and the lump in my neck was the secondary cancer. Crazy as this is it was a relief to hear and I am happy with the result. I now know that I can beat this cancer no problem but even better its made a difference to how i feel about my life
I no longer have negativity about myself I'm a stronger person, I can see the good in everything and everyone I'm moving forward and expanding into a better person. Believe me this blog is a testament to my progress I would never have done anything like this before. I find myself wanting to express thoughts of love and understanding to everybody and believe that I'm hear to help and to teach. I don't want to lead people down my path but I do want to show that the choices of paths are endless and if I can deal with such a devastating thing like terminal cancer in this positive way dealing with any problem and staying on top of it can only be a good thing.
Ive never felt better than right now and right now is all that matters for the future and my future has never been brighter than now. I'm not delirious and I know I have an illness that needs to be dealt with but I don't feel that its necessary for me to be concerned about it on any level. I don't need to take any medical treatment because I know I can heal myself. The human body is designed to repair its self from the smallest cut to the biggest broken bone, I know Ive broken them all and at the moment I'm recovering from a multiple spiral fracture of the leg after a trip over the edge of a mountain on a quad bike.
You would think that with having cancer my body would struggle to repair my leg but its healing in record time and that's only because I'm in alignment with my inner self and I believe that I'm in complete control of my reality as we all are. Self belief is the key to life weather your trying for a new job or fighting the big C. My strength has come from my research but most of all its come from the understanding of my past. Knowing who you were and reading between the lines of life helps you move forward and expand. Its something we all can do I know it because things don't feel this good when your wrong about something.
Your feelings and emotions are your guidance system and if you are true to your self you can not get it wrong.
Ive obviously heard and seen the struggle that Jade Goodey is having with her illness and have thought about it allot and wondered what I could do to help. But on reflection I know that she has to want to help her self. This certainly doesn't make me feel that I wont be able to help myself. I know I'm strong and that my cancer is already leaving my body. I have no effects of this illness and have never felt healthier than I do now and I tell myself this all day and every day to keep focused on my well being and total recovery.
We are amazing beings and our capabilities are endless believe in everything and everything will be yours.
Steve.